It is amazing how as humans we also grave connection and attention. To the point that we believe that if we don't get what we give then it is not right and we are wasting our time. I am not gonna lie at some point in my life I believed that. I told myself that I will treat people as they treat me, I will care as much as they do. I will give as much as they do. But now I changed my mind. I guess I matured.
Maturing is not about getting older really. It is about having reasonable thoughts. You may meet people who are way younger than you but they always seems more mature than you. So maybe it took me a while to finally be mature human being.
I realized that we are not the same. I am not the same as anyone in my life no matter how many similarities we share. So if we are not the same how am I expecting everyone to treat me the same way I treat them. It just doesn't make sense and I understand it now. Let me explain it in a simple way.
Let's say that you are a caring person, you are always there for others you always give. You know what, that is okay. It is okay to be the one who always suggest an outing, because when you do they show up and you end up having a great time, right? So they don't suggest a hangout but they get excited when you do and always be up for it. So tell me where in this you think they don't care or like to hang out with you ? They are just not used to ask or suggest or plan anything. Maybe sometimes they are really busy to hang out, it doesn't mean they don't care.
We always like to analyze things forgetting that it will be easier to just ask a simple question.
"wanna hang out"
"yes"
Doesn't matter who ask, doesn't matter who takes the first step. What matters is the time you spent with them.
Moving on, you have to know that relationship/Friendship is not a competition of love. No one is holding a scoreboard to see who collects more points. It is very normal that when people are together they don't love or show love at the same level. But that is okay. It is okay to be the one who always send the cheesy love texts. It is okay to be the one who like to gift more. It is okay to be the one who sacrifice more. That doesn't mean the other person should give zero efforts obviously or else you will know that they don't care. But you might think, oh they are not giving me the same energy. But they are giving you the energy that they can give. If you are a fast replier and they are not, well that doesn't mean they don't care. If you are the one who always say "love you" first, it is okay. Be yourself and spread love as you want and as you really are. Don't hold back feelings from others just because you think they are not treating you the exact same way or level. The only thing that should matter is that you are treated with respect. Believe me respect and honesty are the foundation of any relationship. Other things just will build up around it.
So remember it is not about who cares more. It is about not being afraid to show what you feel. To be honest if you do so you will be the winner. But again it is not a competition 😉.